Lyrics

Right now I’m prepared to say that was the last

No more love affairs, I can’t live if love can’t last

I’ve prayed to her before,

sincere and with all my heart

I’ve asked for a sign

but I don’t think she ever heard

And the echo of a love still lingers on

 

Does God want me now ?

Is she calling me because she knows my pain ?

 

There is nothing wrong with love,

    if love is pure

But everything is wrong,

    if lovers are not sure

Did I ever love?

Will I ever love, please tell me, God !

 

Exploring my heart and mind

she’ll know I am a man

Who tries avoiding harm

and does the best he can

But did she close and lock the the door

Does she really hold the key ?

May the right one not be there

and God the only one to see ?

I’m confused, yet not prepared to really believe

 

That God wants me now

and is calling because she knows I’m in despair

 

There is nothing wrong with love,

    if love is pure

But everything is wrong,

    if lovers are not sure

Did I ever love?

Will I ever love, please tell me, God!

 …. If you’re really there

…. or do I have to find you in here ?

Story

This was a very early attempt at song-lyrics (around 1994) with typical melo-drama and pathos on my part that probably did not match real feelings at that time. However, it was true that I doubted love and my capability thereof already then which over years and relations were confirmed again and again. In spite of the recording I later replaced “he” with “she” (the God part) and somewhere along the way also gave up on the original title "Does God Want Me Now". The music was one of two songs that I recorded before cooperating with Morten and it's definetely a raw demo with no mixing etc.